When Truth Attacks

Sometimes it all starts with a feeling that’s like claustrophobia. You want to break free — but you can’t. You want to run away — but there’s nowhere to go.

It's a feeling when all your life experience, knowledge, and upbringing suddenly become useless.

The Violence of Truth

When the memories you used to rely on and the dreams that once inspired you only get in the way. They confuse you, pull you back, and make it impossible to move forward.

All the scenes from your life — both good and bad — appear at once. There are too many of them, and they are too loud. You start to feel like you can’t breathe. It's hard to tell what’s true and what’s a lie, what’s real and what’s just in your head.

All the life rules fall apart. The meanings you believed in disappear. The opinions of teachers, the norms of society, even your own beliefs — everything breaks down. It's like the ground under your feet is gone.

All questions that begin with "How?" break against the answer "No way."

"Jellyfish" by Polina Washington

So maybe it’s time to stop and listen to this cry of the soul — or, as people often say, the “inner voice”?

“Do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know the side you are used to is better than the one to come?” ― Rumi

Facing the Truth

And then comes the moment when there’s nowhere left to run. Not from yourself, not from your true self, not from the truth that obeys no one and nothing.

You don’t know what to do anymore, where to go, who to complain to, or who to blame. And suddenly you understand: no one can save you from yourself now.

It feels like being lonely even among people. A deep, almost physical disconnection from everything around you.

Helplessness, powerlessness, lost hopes...

Maybe it’s time to give this feeling the right to exist too?

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